Ceej... [Anger is building in him. He wants to go to Ceej's world, find those that hurt Connor and make them pay. All of them. Tear through his world finding everyone who had added to the pain until it was too much to bare. Until Ceej had died from it. They should pay, should be made to feel as much pain as they had caused.
He closed his eyes, breathing, trying for calm. It would help no one, least of all Ceej if Shion lost his temper. There was no one to hurt here, no one that deserved to be hurt anyways. He took another breath, hand still stroking Ceej's hair despite how much he was shaking.]
People... If you live in the world. Any of the worlds. You get hurt. People hurt you... That's what reality is. [Painful and difficult. But Shion had grown up in the opposite. A perfect world. Nothing bad had ever happened to him. But it had not been real. He had not been real. Just a mere shadow of a person.
Ceej was real. Real in all the messy ways that made a person.] But... Trusting people. That's a choice. It can be hard... [Especially for people like Connor, people who are so used to having walls around themselves. He's so much like Rat in that regard. Hurt so much that his walls are high. Shion understands that now, in a way he never used to.] But it's worth it... For the people who won't hurt you. For the people who won't hate you.
cw: anger and murder thoughts
He closed his eyes, breathing, trying for calm. It would help no one, least of all Ceej if Shion lost his temper. There was no one to hurt here, no one that deserved to be hurt anyways. He took another breath, hand still stroking Ceej's hair despite how much he was shaking.]
People... If you live in the world. Any of the worlds. You get hurt. People hurt you... That's what reality is. [Painful and difficult. But Shion had grown up in the opposite. A perfect world. Nothing bad had ever happened to him. But it had not been real. He had not been real. Just a mere shadow of a person.
Ceej was real. Real in all the messy ways that made a person.] But... Trusting people. That's a choice. It can be hard... [Especially for people like Connor, people who are so used to having walls around themselves. He's so much like Rat in that regard. Hurt so much that his walls are high. Shion understands that now, in a way he never used to.] But it's worth it... For the people who won't hurt you. For the people who won't hate you.