And I don't want anyone to suffer with me. It's bad enough when it's just me, sharing the pain doesn't make me feel better.
[He'd bottle it like he always has, but now that only puts him at risk for exploding into a pure, unrepentant monster with no chance of returning to who he is now. He has to let the pressure on his heart and head ease, and that means letting others shoulder some of his pain.]
You don't have to apologize for snapping. I know you're frustrated. But I don't want you to fall apart because you're trying to deal with my crap and your own at the same time. Knowing you care that much, though? It's....
[What is it? What makes the thought of someone caring that much feel so different this time? It's not like Mina fighting through her fear of him to offer him support. It's not like strangers becoming friends who care about his safety. Ignis has no fear of him, and whether that's ignorance, bravado, or something else isn't something Soma knows. This is new and different, and it's more than a little scary.]
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[He'd bottle it like he always has, but now that only puts him at risk for exploding into a pure, unrepentant monster with no chance of returning to who he is now. He has to let the pressure on his heart and head ease, and that means letting others shoulder some of his pain.]
You don't have to apologize for snapping. I know you're frustrated. But I don't want you to fall apart because you're trying to deal with my crap and your own at the same time. Knowing you care that much, though? It's....
[What is it? What makes the thought of someone caring that much feel so different this time? It's not like Mina fighting through her fear of him to offer him support. It's not like strangers becoming friends who care about his safety. Ignis has no fear of him, and whether that's ignorance, bravado, or something else isn't something Soma knows. This is new and different, and it's more than a little scary.]
I don't understand.